cheesefest.

*SIGHHHHHHHHHHH*
its friday night, i'm nearly fifteen years old and what am i doing? sitting with my mother watching her, wathing some victorian bloody programme. On the way home i passed like all my friends in the main street but i had to go VISIT MY GRAN and it just made me feel like shit. Dont get me wrong i love my gran more than anything, but i'm young, i wanna be out with my friends.

I've been blogsurfing alot recently, just going on some randomers blogs and i realised. Everyone, everywhere is obsessed with love? Why one asks? Again, dont get me wrong i cannot lie, i am too. I love the thought of someone being there for you, holding your hand and people looking at you maybe even being jelous. I see it in school alot and i'm so envious. Why can't i have it? I cannot even discuss my previous reationships, especially my last one. It actually put me off boys for atleast a year and i felt i could never trust any of them ever again after what happened? Its disgusting, and i feel quite stupid looking back at it now. But luckily i have the best friends and it was my boy-friends that got me to trust them again. I love them lots and i dont think they know it (:  but i really do.

xx